.:Wandering thoughts:.

::Not much today...
Well...
I stayed beside Keila  almost all morning while she was studying about water, water's polarity, polar molecules and nonpolar molecules... 
She also did Maths, Bible and Spanish.
We ate caramel and cheese popcorn... yes, caramel and cheese popcorn... They are actually addictive!!  You know, the one from Costco...  Next time you go to Costco, look in everyone's cart and I am positively sure that you will see everybody with one, two or three bags of those in it :-)

Ok, now, I have to admit...
I've always tried to find positive blessings in each simple day because it makes me happy but lately...
I don't know why but it's kind 'a hard for me...
Last night, has I lay in my bed wondering about this problem, my thoughts returned to the doctors office on the 27th of November.  I can remember still hearing the doctor telling us all about Aaron's MRI results.  I remember how I was trying to pretend I was strong when I wasn't strong at all.  I remember how my brain got frozen and I can't remember much after that.  Oh... I can remember walking to the car, I remember the parking ticket, I remember trying not to cry because my big guy was with us.
I remember listening to the hymn "How deep the father`s love for us" twice.  I remember crying to God and letting the tears go down hoping my big boy in the back wouldn`t see me.
It`s hard.
Life is hard, it`s sometimes very hard
This time, I feel somebody killed my dream.

Suddenly...
Blessings upon blessings started to fall on us.
It was so overwhelming I still can`t understand
Messages from kind Christians, support from friends and family, calls from doctors...
This had to be from the Lord.

Have you ever felt your blessings where bigger than your sorrow?
This is how I felt one morning lying on my bed wondering why God was doing that to me.
I came to the conclusion that it was probably not because of me  but because of Aaron.
Because he was special.
God knows what he`s doing.
He perfectly has a plan for everyone of us.
I know that for sure, it`s just, today...
It`s hard.

It`s not always like that thought.  Some days are good, some days are bad.

This morning, Aaron was not feeling well
This is one of those days when I feel worried.

I will find things to be thankful for today...

The bright sunny sky
The red maple trees around our house
My beautiful family
The gorgeous colors of Fall
Friends

Hope you're all having a great day!
Blessings,
Nancy

PS: In case you think my writing sometimes sounds kind 'a strange.... I`m a French girl still learning English :-)
You can visit our French blog here.